West vanished Sept. 30 in San Francisco. At times I hate myself. I am a three time attempt suicide survivor and it has been a year since my last attempt and the ideation has pretty much left me. Dressed in a blue sweatshirt, leggings and Vans slip-on sneakers,. Berkeley when she went missing on September 30, 2020. She was struggling with depression for years. You also can find other places to get help by phone, email, chat, or text at http://www.SpeakingOfSuicide.com/resources/#immediatehelp. Trackback URL Good luck to your friend, Julie, and thanks for commenting. She is an amazing musician. Rhodes had been seeking fame all his life, and successfully became one of Hollywoods first stuntmen, appearing in movies such as "Under Arizona Skies" and "Duel in the Sun," in which he performed a cliff jump. There are some reports that Sydney may have suffered from depression. I tried to commit suicide when I was 18. She was a student at Donlon Elementary and Hart Middle schools and attended Foothill High School for her freshman and sophomore years. 2021 CBS Broadcasting Inc. All Rights Reserved. Im all right, Im prepared for this! Dusty Rhodes yelled as he launched himself from the Golden Gate Bridge. These findings are consistent with other studies that have looked at method substitution, which can occur when one suicide method is made unavailable and people substitute it with another. All theses years following, I did not feel good about myself, am reunited with my nephew, reading up on how to talk to him. In 2013, 118 potential jumpers were talked down from their attempts and did not jump. All clues so far, the family has revealed, have not been fruitful. I hope that he is able to get effective help, both psychologically and pharmaceutically. "There were many people in that vicinity during that time," said Mr. West. It was the last thing Dusty did, and it was a failure, she said. Being a freshman and isolated on campus due to the COVID pandemic was hard for West, her family said. Your email address will not be published. I fully expected to talk to her the next day, Jay West told KRON4. Berkeley when she went missing on September 30, 2020. It is important to note that there has been no activity on her phone, bank accounts, or social media accounts since Sept. 30. West may have been wearing dark leggings, blue Vans shoes and a teal sweatshirt at the time of her disappearance. I dont understand why things are suddenly going so well for me though.. Youd think karma would hit me and make my life way worse but I guess the universe wants me alive for some reason? West was in the Bay Area to take summer classes at UC Berkeley; she was supposed to enter school in the fall, but due to a concussion she sustained and classes being held remotely, she opted to defer for another year but stayed in California with family friends. So when crazy people did crazy things in public places, excited crowds would gather. I once attributed that simply to having realized I wanted to live and (narrowly) surving my attempt. "This will be the biggest jump of my life," he told her. Theyre asking anyone "who may have been walking, biking, running, who commute over the bridge particularly Wednesday mornings at that time" to share information if they might have seen West or anything that can help locate the missing teen. I mean how long can I go ahead. In Toronto, the barrier at the Bloor Viaduct did not reduce the number of people who died of suicide by jumping in the city; it just moved them to other locations. Shortly after 1 p.m. on March 8, San Francisco officials pulled the fully clothed body of a 56-year-old white man from the waves off secluded Marshall's Beach, just south of the Golden Gate Bridge. I hope he is seeing a psychiatrist for his medications, not a PCP, because psychiatrists are much more well versed in the benefits, risks, side effects, etc. Its not always a change of mind when deciding not to jump its fear of failure, Hi Londa, Has left me pretty much bankrupt and not willing to live. My failure as a person was responsible for my extreme step. . / CBS San Francisco. A view of the Golden Gate Bridge with San Francisco behind it in January 1947. About his dads suicide, your article helping me a lot to help. You cant will people to live. Hines, who suffers from bipolar disorder, survived a jump from San Francisco's Golden Gate Bridge in 2000. Public File for KBCW-TV / KBCW 44 Cable 12. He recovered physically, but mentally he is now depressed and on anti-depressants,has anxiety attacks, is too emotional for working, and keeps saying he wishes he had succeeded with his attempt as he feels a burden to everyone. Hello Tony, so sorry for my belated response. In 2000, he actually did jump off the Golden Gate Bridge. Precious few people survive such a fall; the water about 200 feet below acts the same as concrete when a person lands on it at high speed. How many of the survivors were so injured by the attempt that they were unable to complete the act? Too, people who attempt suicide may receive the help they need afterwards. He managed to turn himself upright in the few seconds it took for him to hit the water; this way, he did not land on his head. "I just want to reach out to all the folks that have been supporting us over the past almost month now, communicate that the support and the love that we get is just absolutely amazing," Wests dad, Jay West, said in the clip. "Jump." That's the word Kevin Hines heard in his head on September 25, 2000, as he stood on the Golden Gate Bridge. On average, 30 people or more die from suicide here each year. Not having the courage to fulfill my plan, I checked into treatment centers and each time I checked out I sank into suicidal depression again. "Together we will find Sydney and bring her home," her mother said. Someone mustve seen something nothing is being ruled out. Her family has stated that she enjoyed the area around the Golden Gate Bridge, and it was not unlike her to take pictures and go for a walk or run. Key to my recovery was becoming realistic about my part in creating the calamity called my life, but also needed to recognize others responsibilities as well. I wonder what psychotherapy he has tried. I was so worried about him, but he refused to get help and he kept drinking. On the morning of September 30, 2020, Sydney took a ride share service to the Golden Gate Bridge, where she often went to jog, practice yoga, and exercise in nearby Crissy Field. He completed the challenge and won himself a taxi ride to New York. And the children are adults now. God will come through for you but you have to make an attempt. What % of those people were financially ruined (ie dead broke) with no job or no home? :A Follow-up Study of Suicide Attempters fromthe Golden Gate Bridge.. Where Are They Now? So they dont die, but continue miserable lives wishing for it to be over. Praying for you. I lost my boyfriend to suicide two years ago and I have not been able to forgive myself. Im about to be 22, medicated trying to live normal with constant suicidal thoughts. Perfectly so. That is so sad, Julie. Joshua Bote is the tech editor at SFGATE. Please enter valid email address to continue. A narcissistic parent doesnt cause suicide, either lifes problems do or mental illness does. I interviewed her parents.https://t.co/tiBGM53NZz pic.twitter.com/lvHh2cCrZg. Your Privacy Choices (Opt Out of Sale/Targeted Ads). I am so very grateful now to be alive and I hope to find ways to assist others going through the deep abyss that can sometimes take over your entire being take another breath, and another. It would be logical to assume that being prevented from jumping merely delayed their death. Holidays and milestones come and go while we continue to feelSydney's absence continuously. Children are a major reason for living for many people who battle suicidal thoughts. I died that day too. They planned to reconvene in L.A. the following day to hatch a plan to monetize the footage. Had she jumped somebody definitely would have noticed, and it would've been caught on CCTV (the cameras are placed on light poles so fog does not block). She is from Chapel Hill, N.C. The night before she disappeared (Sept. 29) she and her father Jay West had a lengthy phone conversation according to her family. West's parents are asking anyone who may have been commuting or exercising on the bridge to come forward with anything they may have seen. At 11:45 a.m. on Sept. 20, 2013 Kyle Gamboa stopped his truck in the middle of the highway, stepped out, ran onto the pedestrian walkway and jumped off the Golden Gate Bridge to his death. Her parents,Jay and Kimberly West,said their daughter liked visiting that bridge and would go to nearby Crissy Field to exercise. I cant tell you how much of what you write touches me in some way. An estimated 1,600 people have committed suicide by jumping off the Golden Gate Bridge, which has warnings but no barrier. None of us can. In this clinical case conference, the authors begin by presenting vignettes to capture the diversity of bridge suicide. I love to see that in the Comments section; I find it beautiful when people can connect in this way and, even more, when someone can tell another person what they havent believed for themselves. I had my suicidal thoughts since I was a child I lost my mum when I was 9 years old she took her own life and even now after my attempt I still dont know how to feel about what happened to her and what I have done to my self but I know I will have to find a way to live with the impact of my attempt and hopefully find a way to some sort of happiness, Please seek help, therapy to work through your trauma, it must be so hard to have lost your mum in this way and your nine year old self could only feel abandoned, not enough to have stopped her. I think it could be helpful to you. Car plunges off California elevated highway, 3 people killed. Same with divorce. Seidens study shows that those who encounter a personal, human intervention during the suicide attempt are less likely to end up dying of suicide (though he admits that another big percentage continue self-destructive behaviorse.g., excessive drinkingthat lead to an early natural death), but it says nothing about the efficacy of physical barriers. Berkeley. For more information, click here. I meant it, and I almost succeeded. It is believed that she had moved out of the dorms into an apartment with some friends near campus. But what about people like me? My name is Steven. Press J to jump to the feed. But its possible theres not more you could have done. Golden Gate Bridge, suspension bridge spanning the Golden Gate in California to link San Francisco with Marin county to the north. But I have. It was apparently very foggy that morning. But he didnt and will never know that what he had actually solved only his own problem- feeling/depression. I would bet that most, if not all, had narcissistic mothers. Case Contact Information: SFPD at 415-575-444 or text TIP411 (Start your message with SFPD) Or contact: private investigator Scott Dudek at 925-705-8328 or dudek.associates@gmail.com, *there is a reward for information that leads to her location and return, For more info: https://findsydneywest.com/ Facebook: Find Sydney West Instagram @find_sydney_west Polly Klaas Foundation: https://www.pollyklaas.org/missing-children/sydney-west/, Sources: https://pleasantonweekly.com/news/2021/09/30/what-a-week-find-sydney-west https://www.kron4.com/news/bay-area/searching-for-sydney-san-francisco-police-still-asking-for-publics-help/?fbclid=IwAR2uVE3anCjr5EvpUerTiD6JZxCAENR83-xIRz3TRzAfRuGckyYFzRqnobM https://storiesoftheunsolved.com/2020/11/27/the-disappearance-of-sydney-west/.